Saturday, June 20, 2009

My eyebrow ring


I have been wanting one since FOREVER and I finally got the balls to go get it done. It actually didn't hurt anymore than my belly peircing and is much mroe rewarding. I absoloutely LOVE it. Even my mom, MY MOTHER, said that it looks good on me and she usually doesn't approve of that sort of thing. I knew I would love it, and I do. I bled a good bit, but Aaron (my piercer at Outlaw Tattoo and Piercing) said that was good because it meant I have good blood flow and it will heal faster. Anyway, I think it looks awesome and I am completely and 110% satisfied with it. Here are some pictures for your personal pleasure. *wink*














Thursday, June 18, 2009

ahoy

Life has been crazy. As soon as I can get around to uploading them I will post pictures of mine and Candice's latest bodily alterations. Badass.
I can't believe how fast Toto is growing up! Sometimes when I'm holding her I just can't stop looking at her. Something so precious, so innocent, so untainted. I feel the strongest need to protect her, even to the point of anger when people outside of the Tribe (closest family and friends) hold her. I think about some of the things I've done or been through, and then I imagine her doing it or experiencing it. And I want to burn the images out of my brain, because I can't stand it. I'm not ashamed of what I've done, but to imagine her being in that kind of danger, those kind of situations... it disturbs me. I wish I could protect her from the world as long as there is breath in her body, and the reality that I cannot is painful to accept.
But we have the greatest times together. She is a morning person, always screeching and smiling, and happy to see me. This works out well because if both of us weren't morning people than we might would have a problem. But my dragon morning mood dissapears quickly when she gets transferred to my care. Its amazing, she's like my therapy. I can be having a bad day, or be pissed off or something, and the minute she's in my arms the rest of the world seems to melt away. My problems don't seem so important anymore, and she never fails to bring a smile to my face. Abigail came right when I needed her, and I owe her a tremendous amount.
Last weekend for Tribe Date Night we went out and saw "Land of the Lost". From what I saw it was a bit different from the show, but funny. I can't have much of an opinion however because about halfway through I passed out in my seat. I felt really bad about this, but after 2 days with no sleep my body pretty much pulled rank and shut down for a little while.
Candice and Kristy are both on summer break, and are loving it. Kristy is getting to spend more time with Toto and Candice is catching up on much needed rest.
Mama's garden is coming along splendidly. We are harvesting from it now, and its exciting to see something transform like it has. You can see pictures at her blog "southern born".
Okay, Toto just took a shit so I better go change her.
I leave you with pictures for your personal enjoyment. *grin*



Off on one of his strange adventures^^
Good to have this one back in my life^^
He's really grown up. *chuckles* ^^
She's pretty much used to living in an asylum now. ^^
Me and Nik back in the saddle ^^
I'd be nothing without them ^^
'Bout to go out^^
Me and Toto^^
Damn I love that kid^^









Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Pictures of life lately

Me and Toto^^^
Kissy Kissy... ^^^Sad face^^^

Me and Jamie^^^

Me and Justin^^^

The Charmed Ones^^^

Barbie Girls ^^^
Coyote Uglies^^^I will curse you... ^^^
Time Lords^^^









Monday, May 18, 2009

PHOENIX

You might knock me to my knees, but I won't stay down long.
And if you think this will destroy me, I'm here to say you're wrong.
Theres too much for me to let something tear me apart.
And if I back up it will only be to get a running start.
I might stumble and I may just fall, but I'll get back up.
I may take a break to catch my breath but I won't give up.
I will ride out the storm, soar above the wind, surf the waves, fight fire with fire, and when the smoke clears I will be rising out of the ashes, head held high giving you a one fingered salute.


Friday, April 24, 2009

Restart

Restart....
I wish I could rewrite history, I wish I could change the past.
I'd take all the proper steps, to ensure we'd last.
I'd undo all the mistakes we made, I'd unplay all the games we played.
Restart....
I'd hold you up when you were weak, I'd never let you fall.
I'd take care of everything, and be there when you called.
I'd hold your hand through everything, I'd be right by your side,
I'd stand against your every foe, I'd never run and hide.
Restart.....
If Time is watching us now, she is laughing.
If Pain is watching us now, she is reveling.
If Love is watching us now, she is weeping.
If Hope is watching us now, she is dying.
Restart....
If I could start again, I don't know what I'd do.
I thought I did it all right, with my world centered around you.
And though go back in time I know I can't,
oh god what I would give for the chance......
Restart......

Thursday, March 26, 2009

forget it

On second thought, nevermind.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Not over

Can it really all be for nothing? Can it really be over...?







No. Not yet. I'm not giving up, not as long as I'm given a chance. Call me stupid, call me ignorant, call me a hopeless romantic. I don't care. As long as theres a chance, I'll take it.