Best friend

I tried my hardest,
I did my best,
But in end I failed the test.

You say things about me,
the way that I am,
but never say I didn't give a damn.

You think I'm a bitch,
and you're probably right,
but I never hid who I was from your sight.

You think I'm no good,
a horrible friend,
but I told you that - I didn't pretend.

You thought you could handle my issues,
thought you could save me,
I guess your mistake you now see.

You said you were different,
that you'd never leave,
but now you've given up on me.

If there is one thing,
I wish you knew,
its that I tried to be better for you.

My very best effort,
I gave it my all,
But now you don't care if I fall.

What hurts the most,
Oh the irony,
is the one who wasn't good enough was me.

Abandonment, betrayal, dishonesty,
I guess it was fate,
Now I grieve as you join the list of those I hate.
-Marli Cauthen 2008

This was my guesture of closure, my final say on an issue that has added many memo's to my notes to self. An issue that completely blindsided me, but I am rapidly coming to terms with. I disabled commentary because I really don't care what anyone has to say about it and don't want to engage in meaningless banter about my life. Truth is, I know more about the issue than ANYONE else who could read this, and so I don't need unsolicited advice or valueless lecturing. So spare me. This is for me.

-Phoenix out