All swimmed out

Went swimming today and let me tell you, I'm beat. We didn't go to shul because of a flat, so me and the other goyim stayed home while the Jews went to throw candy at the Cohens (auf Ruf) who's wedding is tomorrow. So we slept on Ian's bed and watched Dr Who. We slept for like 6 hours. Then we got up and went to anut Geri's again to swim. We swam for 3 hours, and now I don't even want to get a shower. lol My fingers hurt from scraping them against the side of the pool, and Ian pushed me in and I hurt my hurt knee. It was a lot of fun tho. We even managed to take out a horsefly. It landed on Ian's head and I smacked it. lol Funny. Anyway, we are all pretty tired and Ian went to bed not long after we got home.
Its nice to be in Alabama, but I think my husband underestimated how much he'd miss me.

If I drown in the middle of the night from all the chlorine-infested pool water I inhaled, I love you all.

Changes

I just read Chelsey's blog and it kind of pissed me off. (I'm sure she didn't mean it too)
YEah, I know people change, why the hell do you people think I don't make friends? Because its not worth losing them when they change (and because I HATE people). I don't need to be told 'people change get over it'.
But when I feel a childhood friend slipping away, when I feel a distance opening up between me and someone I have been closer to than almost ANYONE in years, it friggin hurts. I have a right to be angry, and if I don't oh well I'm going to be anyway.
Yeah, I've changed some I'm sure, but it doesn't alter how I feel about those I love, or how I act towards them. You can't just push someone away because of a transition in your life.
If anyone's got something to say about it, go ahead. I couldn't care less.

And by the way, my 12 year old self would WORSHIP me.

Don't say goodbye

'Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight

'Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I

And although we knew

This time would come for me and you

Don't say anything tonight

If you're gonna say goodbye

say goodbye- skillet

Rumors

Yes, the rumors are true, I am back in Alabama. We got stationed at Fort Rucker here in the heart of dixie.
Not really. I wish. Oh well. In all seriousness I came back for a visit for a couple of weeks. My hubby was so sweet to let me come for this long, though he is missing me like crazy. Its sad though because after we bought the ticket we found out he was going to Germany for 2 weeks right after I get back and then to Ft. Hood for a few days right after that. So we're going to be apart alot more than planned. I should have just come while he was in Germany, but simply didn't know about it.
I'm enjoying being home. Everything is so green and beautiful, and it smells good and its not as hot as TX. Everyone reacted to me coming exactly like I expected, and its wonderful to see them. I've had so much fun, because most everyone here is exactly like I left them.
But not everyone. And that hurts more than even I could have anticipated. Makes me almost wish I'd never come home at all, rather than to have to witness the changes firsthand.
But this is home, and I think I love it more than I ever have.
Have no fear, I'm retiring here - unless I find somewhere I like better filled with people I like better. Not highly likely.
Joey and Chuchy are the same, and everything is the same between us. The same with Mama and Nikki. Others, not so much.
Okay, well I am off to have a ciggerette with Nikki because this post is depressing me.

I will simply focus on the fact that I am home with so many people I love in a place I love.
And that makes me happy.

I miss my man though.....

Ow.

Somehow someway I have injured my knee. It started about a week ago, in the morning, and I thought I'd just slept wrong. Well its gotten worse each day, and now I'm limping around everywhere. Its worse when I keep it bent for really any amount of time at all. Like when I sit down and then try to get back up. I look like an old woman. Its sad. lol But it hurts pretty bad and its swollen and tender to the touch. It hurts inside the kneecap, which concerns me a little. I've already been to phisical therapy once for my knee (different injury) and don't want to do it again. But if it doesn't clear up soon, I might have to take my tail to the doctor. Fun.
For some reason since I was a small child I have been afraid of getting leukimia. And since leg pain is a symptom, I freak out when I even have growing pains - well, I say 'freak out' but its nothing like how Candice gets about stuff. She's the family hypocondriact -her and Chuch. Me? I'm not a hypocondriact, I'm just usually right. I don't get sick when I decide not to, I do get sick when I know I'm going to, and when I say someone has a tumor? Well, let history speak for itself.
I hope I'm not getting a tumor in my knee.......

Yet another thing to brag about!

No, I'm not done yet.
Okay, so last month he was just one sit-up short of a perfect PT score (which means he wouldn't have to go to PT everyday), and because he has such a high PT score he was handpicked to participate in a combatives class this month. He was really really excited about it. But then he got handpicked with a few others out of his unit to go to Germany for some training - which he was REALLY excited about (I'm excited for him, but also jealous because Germany is on both of our lists of 'places we'd like to visit'). So he was a little bummed about missing his combatives class. But when they were going to take him off the list, his Company commader -the battalion leader- said no. He said "This guy has a really high-speed PT score and he is going to Germany and the combatives class." So now he is on the list for the class in August. I think it is soooooo AWESOME that he is getting noticed like that, by the BATTALION LEADER.
I'm really proud of him and thought I would show off more.
My husband is the shnizzle.

bragging rights

Oh just wanted to brag on my man a bit.....

Yesterday they did whats called "last man standing PT. Thats where they do a series of excersizes, and whoever is consistantly among the last soldiers able to continue get some sort of reward. Well, out of the 5-7 people in the entire unit (about 70 people) to be 'last standers', MY man was one of them. And his reward was not having to go to PT today. So that was nice and I'm really proud of him.
Its always awesome when he gets a little extra time off duty. And he got off 15 minutes early for lunch. :)

Okay I'm done now, I just wanted to boast.
l8ter

The deadliest snake in the world

I normally dislike snakes, but I still find myself fascinated by them. Especially the mamba. I am glad they are in africa. The only one I've seen here in TX is the green mamba at the san antonio zoo. :) I am perfectly content with it remaining there.

Black mambas are fast, nervous, lethally venomous, and when threatened, highly aggressive. They have been blamed for numerous human deaths, and African myths exaggerate their capabilities to legendary proportions. For these reasons, the black mamba is widely considered the world’s deadliest snake.Black mambas live in the savannas and rocky hills of southern and eastern Africa. They are Africa’s longest venomous snake, reaching up to 14 feet (4.5 meters) in length, although 8.2 feet (2.5 meters) is more the average. They are also among the fastest snakes in the world, slithering at speeds of up to 12.5 miles per hour (20 kilometers per hour).They get their name not from their skin color, which tends to be olive to gray, but rather from the blue-black color of the inside of their mouth, which they display when threatened.Black mambas are shy and will almost always seek to escape when confronted. However, when cornered, these snakes will raise their heads, sometimes with a third of their body off the ground, spread their cobra-like neck-flap, open their black mouths and hiss. If an attacker persists, the mamba will strike not once, but repeatedly, injecting large amounts of potent neuro- and cardiotoxin with each strike.Before the advent of black mamba antivenin, a bite from this fearsome serpent was 100 percent fatal, usually within about 20 minutes. Unfortunately, antivenin is still not widely available in the rural parts of the mamba’s range, and mamba-related deaths remain frequent.The black mamba has no special conservation status. However, encroachment on its territory is not only putting pressure on the species but contributes to more potentially dangerous human contact with these snakes.
Article from National Geographic

Most venomous creature in the WORLD

It was probably a decade ago when I first read about the Box Jelly fish in a national geographic magazine. I remember being facinated for some reason, and today found myself randomly thinking about them again. So I thought I'd share the wonder. Enjoy.
(believe it or not they really are the most venomous creature in the world!)



The infamous box jellyfish developed its frighteningly powerful venom to instantly stun or kill prey, like fish and shrimp, so their struggle to escape wouldn’t damage its delicate tentacles.Their venom is considered to be among the most deadly in the world, containing toxins that attack the heart, nervous system, and skin cells. It is so overpoweringly painful, human victims have been known to go into shock and drown or die of heart failure before even reaching shore. Survivors can experience considerable pain for weeks and often have significant scarring where the tentacles made contact.Box jellies, also called sea wasps and marine stingers, live primarily in coastal waters off Northern Australia and throughout the Indo-Pacific. They are pale blue and transparent in color and get their name from the cube-like shape of their bell. Up to 15 tentacles grow from each corner of the bell and can reach 10 feet (3 meters) in length. Each tentacle has about 5,000 stinging cells, which are triggered not by touch but by the presence of a chemical on the outer layer of its prey.Box jellies are highly advanced among jellyfish. They have developed the ability to move rather than just drift, jetting at up to four knots through the water. They also have eyes grouped in clusters of six on the four sides of their bell. Each cluster includes a pair of eyes with a sophisticated lens, retina, iris and cornea, although without a central nervous system, scientists aren’t sure how they process what they see.
Article from National Geographic

Not a complete disasterrrrrr

Well, turns out that we ended up have a pretty good date. A juicy burger and a movie that turned out to be a lot better than the previews (The Happening), as well as giving myself a more rational perspective on maintaining the luxury of dating my husband did wonders for my mood. We stayed out really late and he drove home after I almost got us killed (I stopped in what I thought was a turning lane, but it was the oncoming lane -give me a break, you people know I don't have the best night vision) and the next morning we got up and made breakfast together. I love it when we do that.... its something special, where we've got the food going and the music blaring, and every now and then we take a break from flipping eggs to dance a little in the kitchen. Its one of the most romantic things we do, and I don't even know why. Anyway, after that we headed over to Ireane and Felix's, and we hung out there all afternoon. Ashley and Joe joined us, and we all played cards and ate sloppy joes. They have a 2 year old boy (Ireane and Felix) named Marcus and he is awesome. He really keeps us all entertained. And then us girls got in bikinis and ran through the sprinkler outside, topping off the fun by throwing our tops inside to the guys (Ireane's hit Willy in the face and I think thats hysterical). The rest of the night was spent with more games and really good conversation. We all stayed the night (yeah, we're married adults and still having sleepovers - give me one GOOD reason why we shouldn't?) and today me and Ireane made omlets. Lets see..... We all chilled in the living room floor afterwards, half asleep while we watched scrubs. And then we decided we were craving chocolate so after talking Marcus into it we hopped in the car (Ashley and Joe had already went home) and drove downtown to the chocolate factory. Let me just tell you, the white chocolate pecan cluster was fit for the gods. With our sugar buzz going we drove over to every steak house we could find, and they were all full because of father's day. Chilis wasn't tho, so we had some steaks there and I had about 7 sodas. Yeah, definate splurge. Then we all came back to our place to watch the BB game. Lakers won. Woot woot. And me and Ireane changed into our bathing suits and scoped out all three pools. They were all closed of course, but we jumped the fence at one until we noticed we were being watched and hightailed it out of there. So we walked around the apartment complex, scoping out good places to have quickies and had really good convos. Every now and then a guy would walk up and ask for weed or tell us we were hot, but they always walked away empty handed on both counts. lol
Anyway, its been a really fun weekend and its really cool to have friends here. I have a busy day tomorrow ( I hate mondays) so I should get to sleep. Easier said than done.
Nighty night!

Date

SHOOT ME.

Now this is blogging.

Shouldn't you people be blogging every day? So far I am. Of course I do have an addiction to writing so..... And Mom, when are you gonna get one?
Today has been normal. Last night we went over to some friends house for TNT -Thursday Night Tacos - and it was pretty fun. They have a 2 yr old boy and he is awesome. I think we are going back over this weekend. So it should be fun. I think us girls are gonna go out for a bit while our men have some guy time. Then we'll all hook back up later and probably play board games and cards. We were gonna go clubbing, but Alshey's husband refused and so we thought maybe us girls could just go, but I don't think that would be very bright so I think we're gonna find something else to do. We might just all end up hanging out the whole time together instead of splitting up. I'm happy either way, although I think I might rather have my man with me.... :) We'll see. I think tonight we are going on a date. Maybe dinner and a movie?
We went ahead and signed another lease here. So we'll be here until September. We were still debating when some other things came up that helped us make our decision. So even though this place isn't "ideal", I think it was the right decision and I'm pretty comfortable with it.
I still haven't got my phone so I'm pretty upset about that. The guy swears he mailed it, but if I don't get it soon I will start leaving really nasty feedback about him on ebay. Good thing I got a 2 year warrantee with it.
Okay well my man is home early (TGIF) and so I'm off to beautify myself so we can go on a date.
later

What a wonderful day.

Yes that, my dears, was a little thing called sarcasm.
I started my period yesterday, and 24 hours later I'm still cramping. Been in bed ALL friggin night and day with a heating pad and Stephen King novel (can't say I shunned the idea of being able to finish "Cujo") and I just now got up to tidy a little because I know the house won't clean itself and I would like for my husband to come home to some sort of order.
So in addition to the pain, I have a headache -which has been reaccuring all week. Reading didn't help, but I couldn't stop myself. I get so into a book and its as if nothing can shake me back into reality. On top of everything else, I think my horamones are extra bad this month..... And come to think of it they were really bad last month too. I was a wreck. I think that might have had a little to do with my birthday too though......
I'm 20 years old. It may not seem old to some people reading this, but in truth it is beginning of the end. It is the year that the 'rest of my life' is actually a comprehendable amount of time instead of some distant daydream. If I live to be 80, then a quarter of my life is over. My childhood is gone, and what have I to show for it. Nada. When I was a kid and people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, assuming I decided to grace them with a reply, I would always say either "wife and mother" or "vetinarian". I was so sure... I was going to be all of those things. No doubt in my mind. What happened? I've got some pretty good guesses.
They say life never turns out like you planned. And I guess thats true to an extent. But sometimes it does, if you stick to your guns you can make your own luck. Or can you?
Does it really matter? The point is I didn't stick to my guns.
And lady luck turned her back on me a long time ago.

As I said before, my horomones are getting out of control. I think I'll go have a smoke to calm me down. And if anyones got anything to say about me smoking, save it because I've heard it all before and not a thing anyone says is going to make a difference. For the record, me and Alex hardly smoke at all and we don't need lectures.

After the ciggerette I think I'll go play call of duty and take out my raging menustral horomone induced mood on other people with guns.

STRESSING!

Well, our application was accepted so if we choose then the house we looked at yesterday is our's to rent. So thats good right?
Maybe not.
I've been thinking, and I don't know if this is such a genious idea after all, the only problem is my husband wants to move out of the apartment even more than me and I don't want him to be miserable here. We both want to move out, we both want to rent a house -that house - but at what cost? Its risky. Plus, it requires me to give a move out notice to my apartment complex which bothers me because what if something changes and we decide not to move? We're screwed then.
Its just, we were like "Hey our lease ends this month - lets rent a house!" and we didn't prepare or plan for it at all. Now we're rushing into it and we have a deadline which is putting pressure on me, and the more time that passes the more I develope a bad feeling about it. Plus theres all this stuff the new people need like les, copy of orders, copies of drivers license and his ID card. Now what the fuzz are they gonna do with his ID card? They don't need that, I don't even know if he's allowed to hand out copies of that. Holy cats.......... I don't have a printer much less a copy machine.
Plus, if we move in before the 1st of July we will have to pay a full months rent and then turn around and pay again for July, so we need to move in on the 1st. Okay right? Wrong. Our lease here ends on June 30th, which means that for a night, we'd have no where to put us or our stuff. So theres another dillemia. I don't see any way to get around that one, even in the future when we look to rent again. Blah

Things never work out the way you plan and my bad day is rapidy turning into a disasterous one.
Why is it that I always find myself in the position of "bad guy"? I'm screwed no matter what I do, and I hate that.
So I signed another lease here at the apartment, and now its up to Alex. He can either tear it up and move foward with the house, or either he can sign it. Its up to him, I'm sick of being in charge.
Screw it all to hell, I'm done.

Bored

I'm bored and I have a headache, and my mood is rapidly taking a turn for the worse.
its been a pretty busy day, and I'm stressing. We are looking to rent a house rather than an apartment because we're sick of loud neighbors and no space. But, there have been a few complications and looks like we're going to have to sign another 3 mth lease here and postpone our house hunt. Ugg! Its not that we're unhappy here, as far as apartments go this place is actually pretty nice. Cheap, close to post, central location, relatively safe. But a house would have been nice because then we could bring the rest of our stuff from wichita falls and actually have somewhere to put it, and we'd have a yard so we could have a dog, and we wouldn't have loud neighbors with nothing but a wall seperating us.
I don't know, maybe it will still work out. Who knows?
So anyway, Willy didn't come home for lunch today (it was his shift in the office) and so I am bored. When he comes home in the middle of the day for an hour it breaks up the boredom and interrupts my routine, forcing me to reserve things until after he leaves. When he doesn't come home for lunch, I get everything done much quicker and then run out of things to do and get bored.
Ahh! I know, I'll go play call of duty 4.
Later

dangerous times...

I fell in the shower yesterday. You believe that?
Lucky Willy was there to slow my decent.
I only have a bit of a bruised rib, which only hurts if I push on it.
We should be mindful of the chemical reaction that takes place in the floor of our shower when we combine several types of body cleansing agents.
Maybe I should invest in those little sticky animals that feel like dried putty or a corn scrubber - the ones that you put on the bottom of the tub to prevent incidents like this.
Its something to consider.

Done did it

Well, I decided that since my darling brothers and sisters won't be allowed to get a myspace after all, I will get a blog to make communication more - well, just more. I wasn't going to get one, because I already have a myspace that I use ( www.myspace.com/wacymac ), but I also have a thing about blogs. I have a facebook, xanga, and mydeardiary and two myspace profiles. lol So I definately love blogging, and I guess I'm a bit of a online blogging addict. I like adding music and pictures, and changing up my backgrounds. So its hightime I add blogspot or blogger or whatever this is the long list I already have.
So chillax everyone, I have finally arrived (fashionably late as usual).

Well as much as I would love to stick around and write more, I have to go customize my page to my liking.
Later